Growing up, I was a pretty chill kid. My mom said that I rarely cried as a baby, and I was always just happy-go-lucky and excited to be alive.
I don’t know whether it was when I began university, became addicted to social media, or just generally gained more life experience, but somewhere down the line, I lost some of that innocence and lightness. I’ve become so wrapped up in what others think about me and living my life in an orderly, responsible way that I’ve forgotten how to relax and have fun, even when I’m in a setting that should be relaxing and fun.
I’ve especially felt this way since this school year started. I’m in my last year of university, and like most people my age, I’m having an existential crisis of sorts. I’m trying to find my place in the world, and more often than not, I end up in hysterics over the future.
I’m not perfect, and I’ve found that I beat myself up for it. I think a lot of people do this (I know my problems are not unique, in fact I can’t think of a more normal problem to have), and I think we all just need to take a chill pill, breathe and think back to the way we were as children or even teenagers.
When I was in grade school, it never even occurred to me that one day I would need to find a job, settle down, forge a career, etc. I just LIVED! And I had fun doing it.
I’m not saying we should all pretend that there’s no work to be done or heavy decisions or issues to think about. But I’m definitely going to make a concerted effort to quiet the nerve-wracking, repetitive thoughts I’ve been having over the future and just be.
Not everything has to be figured out right now, and life is too short to constantly be living in worry-mode.
In light of this, I’m taking a little break from blogging every day so I can regroup. I’ll be blogging two to three times a week so I can let the inspiration flow naturally and truly enjoy the writing process, instead of just doing it for the sake of doing it.
I’ll also be re-focusing the things I blog about to make them less advice-oriented and more about the things I know the most about: my own experiences. I’m hoping you guys will stick with me on this journey and appreciate that I’m trying to be more authentic and true with everything I do.
This life is all a learning experience — let’s take it day by day together and it will all be just lovely. 🙂