If you’ve been following my blog for a while, you may remember a little post I did a while back about swearing off alcohol for good. It was just after I was diagnosed with type 1 diabetes, and I was super sure I would never get drunk again. The post even had a super dramatic, all-or-nothing title, “Why I Decided to Quit Drinking Once and for All.” *face palm*
Yeah… kinda ate my words on that one. (Or, drank my words?) Slowly, the daily stressors and peer pressures of life got to me, and just one year after writing that post, I was drinking pretty much every weekend again.
So this post isn’t about me claiming I’ll never touch a glass of wine again, or even preaching the negative effects of alcohol. I just find it interesting how strong of an impact alcohol has on my life when I make it a part of my weekend routine, and how amazing I feel when I let it go.
Since making that huge claim about never drinking again, I’ve definitely learned my lesson. Now, I’m more focused on balance, conscious consumption and how I feel when I spend a sober night in. If I want to have a glass of wine at an event or dinner, I’ll damn well do it. Will I ever drink too much and regret it the next day again? I mean, probably, and I’ve come to terms with that.
It’s not about restriction or being overly rigid with my habits. It’s about focusing on how I want to feel, taking a deep breath, and realizing that everything I need is already inside of me.
I’ve finally wrapped my head around the idea that drinking to excess every weekend is a completely destructive habit that has led me down into the depths of insecurity, depression, anxiety, and so much more. I’m training my mind to value exercise, reading, genuine conversations, laughter, and so many other things over the bottle. I’m taking back my Saturday and Sunday mornings, instead of spending them in bed with a headache like I’ve done so many times before.
Alcohol is a depressant drug, and in addition to impacting your mental wellbeing, it damages your organs, skin, hair, nails, makes you hungry and tired, and snatches away so much valuable time and energy (I guess I am preaching about the negative effects of alcohol a bit – sorry!). Life is way too short to drink to excess for a few (admittedly, fun and carefree) hours, just to spend the next week feeling anxious, sad, bored and de-motivated.
For me, it wasn’t a sustainable habit and I knew it would only lead me to darkness. If I couldn’t rely on myself to talk to people, be social, have fun and feel carefree without alcohol, then what was that saying about my strengths as a person?
Since I’ve let go of the alcohol crutch, I feel so much clearer, more conscious, and in control. I’m so into heading to Pilates or yoga on a Sunday instead of being hungover in bed, and I’m more than happy to stay hydrated with a sparkling water while out with friends.
Call me a dork or a Sober Sally, but I’m so happy with this new take on alcohol. What are your thoughts? Let me know below! 👇🏻